Random Thoughts

I’m feeling rather cranky this afternoon. Why? I’m not quite sure. The heat, my friend’s personal problems that I wish I could help with, my boredom at work. Some of that, all of that. Maybe it’s indifference. I’m so very ambivalent about my job, but I keep coming back every day. Am I afraid of change? Or is it the work that I would have to do to go somewhere else? Both I think.

I feel strongly about loyalty. That one should be loyal to those that you’ve made a promise to. And not just the explicit promises between say a husband and wife. Between friends, for instance, there should be a level of trust and loyalty. When confidences are shared, you should have loyalty enough to keep your friend’s secrets. And there isn’t any kind of form to fill out, or a contract to sign, but there should exist an unspoken understanding. (Or if you’re particularly cautious, a spoken understanding.) When you have a job, you have an obligation to work, to give your allegiance to your employer. You should care about your work ethic, and how your performance affects your place of employment. On the other hand, when you are the supervisor or the employer, you have a responsibility to those who work for you or under you. You have a responsibility to make sure that their jobs and livelihoods are secure, that they have work and feel productive. At least, you should feel those things.

I recently met a guy. I like him. We seemed to hit it off very well, and I would very much like to explore this relationship and see where it goes. Funnily, that is the title on his personals profile, along the lines of let’s find out where this might go. I meant to ask him how he feels about fiction, particularly my favorite books and movies. He likes to watch sports, and likes to go to baseball games. Which is a lovely thing, because I seem to spend most of my summer at the ballpark. Or at least I plan on spending as much time there as possible this summer. He likes musicals and other cultural performances like the ballet and the symphony. Which is a wonderful thing, as I would very much like someone to go to those things with. Of course, those seasons just ended, but that’s ok, more time for baseball. I wish I could see him sooner than maybe next week.