I just don't know...

I've been in a strange mood the last few days. It's kind of annoying me.

Last post, I mentioned someone who took 7 months to accept a facebook friend request. Since then I've seen a couple of times that he was online the same time I was. I hadn't done anything about that, but I noticed. So two days ago, on Monday when I was online, he noticed that I was. And he decided to say hi.

It's just strange. He didn't mention any kind of detail, like his wife or his child, or why it took him so long to respond or why he ignored the note I sent him 7 months ago. It kind of ticked me off, and honestly, it hurt me. You'd think it wouldn't bother me by now, but no, I can still have my feelings hurt.

It's all just so dumb, and I'm just annoyed at myself and at him. And then he says that he'd wondered how I've been. Seriously? You say this, while ignoring me all this time? Whatever.

I'm just going to take a few more days, maybe brood a little more about it, but then I'll be ok. After all, if I try to ignore this, it'll just pop back and make me more annoyed.

So that's the plan. Brush this off, because in the end, he just doesn't matter that much to me anymore.

More than seven months....

Why should it take so long to accept my facebook friend request? I'm so far past wanting him as my friend. But I'm afraid that if I delete him, I'll get stupid again and wonder how he's doing. No, I'd prolly not get that stupid again.

But seriously, seven months? What is up with that?

I have a story for you...

So funny thing. I have a friend, a guy, who I've known for years, but we don't hang out anymore. Haven't seen him for nearly a year. I occasionally see him about on Facebook. So back in May, I get a random text from a random person saying that this friend of mine gave them my number. At first I think it's a guy, as the conversation was about baseball and this friend said that we should meet, because of having baseball in common. (Which I thought was funny, but as I hardly ever meet guys who like baseball as much as I do, I was ready to be ok with this.) Anyway, I find out later that it was a girl that was texting me. Don't get me wrong, I have lots of friends who are girls who like to go to ballgames, and girls are allowed to like sports, but really, I don't need more girlfriends who like baseball. So I left the guy a message to that effect. Because the whole thing amused me. To my knowledge, he'd never given out my number before, for any reason, and he decided give a girl my number. So I had to talk to him about it, cause really, it's funny.

(Btw, the above story is not the main point of this post, but the background of the point. Which I will eventually get to.)

So I leave a message, he calls back, we chat, catch up somewhat, and talk for nearly 20 minutes. Nice conversation, and then it's over and that was it. (I did see his online conversation with a friend about how he moved, and is now a lot closer to my part of town (don't put things on public facebook, unless you want all your friends to know about it.) which I was interested in, since that meant I might see him at activities (if I bothered to go).) I figured that it'd be awhile until I heard from him again, unless we bumped into each other.

Then comes yesterday. (Wednesday, to be precise.) I got a text message from the guy, inviting me to this scripture class he was going to. Ok, that was unexpected. A few texts back and forth, and he ;) at me at least 6 times. So I guess we're flirting? He invited me to some activity in a couple of days. Then I made a comment about him moving, and he pointed out that he's now closer to me. So maybe I will see him sometime.

So it's just funny. I mean, yeah, I liked him at one point (as did most of my friends at one time or another), and yeah, I'd go out with him if he asked, but I don't expect that. So it's just a little odd to be flirting via text.

I guess I just need to tell the story, because if I bring up this guy to my mom, she'll tell me that I need to go out with him. (My parents know his parents, and they (my parents) totally like his family, and they would not mind at all if I married this guy.) So now I'm thinking about him again, and it's just strange.

Anyway, that was the story. In other news, my car's a/c went out again, I took a little trip to Prescott to get my car up and over 200,000 miles, and I went to IKEA and now have a really nice tv stand (Yay, my tv is off the floor!). Pictures maybe eventually.

Oh, and the guy in this story is totally different from the other guy I've most recently talked about. But my readers are all so smart, I prolly didn't need to clarify.

Birthday, gifts, and buying stuff.

So I got my money. It's so nice to have money and not have to check my balance every day. I've already spent a little bit of it. I did take my family out to dinner. And got new jeans from Old Navy. A little trip to Mesa today got me some new g's and a couple of cds. I also got all caught up on my tithing.

But my biggest purchase so far was to sign up with a personal trainer. I am so happy to have someone to help me workout. I've been going to the gym, but I've been having trouble motivating myself to lift a lot. But now I have a reason to lift and work. Cause she's gonna make work, and so I have to work.

I still have plenty of money, but I'm doing my best from now on to forget it's there. I still want a new phone and contacts and other things, but I'm going to wait a few weeks before I get the next big thing.

Well, and my birthday is coming up, so I'm going to wait until after that to pick up a video game or two.

Speaking of my birthday, my mom gave me four things to pick from: an ipod nano, a camera, money, or a gift card to Kohl's. I do not know what I'm going to pick.

And then there's been discussion about trading my car in and getting something newer and bigger. That is a hard thought. I'm not quite ready to let my baby go. And I just need 1,500 miles to get to 200,000 miles. But a long road trip is out of the question, so I just might have to ride around for a few days, do nothing but drive around town.

So I've got a lot to think about.

A shopping list

So... I am thinking about going shopping. I'm getting a rather sizable tax refund this year, so I have been having the most fun thinking about what all I could get.

I could put it all into getting my car all fixed. I could actually get the a/c fixed. I mean, it's been a couple few years since it worked, and now that my sister's kids ride in my car, I feel bad for them.

Or...

new jeans
new shoes
new skirts and clothes for church
new clothes for work (if I ever get a job again)
a new phone
a camera
more quilting fabric
LEGO Indiana Jones 2
LEGO Harry Potter
the entire run of Scrubs
contacts (it took me this long to remember that!)
a haircut
find all those movies online that I just can't find in the store
books
music

hmmm, what have I left out?

a new Diamondbacks jersey
other baseball souveniers, like shirts from other teams i like
another wii remote

or...
i could save it for a little while and enjoy the thrill of looking at my bank account with such a big amount of money in it.

or...
I could hold on to it and take one of my nieces to Disneyland. She's already suggested that she and I go.

or...
I could spend money on my family, take them out to dinner, buy things for the nieces and nephews.

or...
I could take a trip. Fly back east and see people. Drive to Utah and visit family. Drive to the beach and just sit and watch the ocean for a couple of days.

What fun things would you guys buy and/or do if you could?

I'm not really a stalker...

There's this guy. Well, I've talked about him before, but it doesn't matter, because I don't see him anymore. But I still think about him.

I mean it, I'm not a stalker.

I could be one. After all, I know where he lives. But he invited me over once. I found out that he actually lives within my current ward boundaries, which is just funny. But I resisted driving by the other day when I was right next to his neighborhood.

I know where he works, but he told me that. Well, no, just the district, and then I looked him up. But I don't go and look him up all the time.

And, ok, I know the names and ages of his children, but again, he told me that.

I did find him on Facebook, and I do occasionally check to see if he posts anything. But I don't call, I don't send messages.

I seriously need someone new to focus on so I can stop thinking about this guy.

'Cause I really don't want to become a stalker.

A whole year

Just over a year ago, I got laid off from my job. And I'm not ashamed to say that this has been the best year ever.

Granted, having to give up my apartment and not being able to find a job have been rough, but it's still been great. I've gotten to know my younger sister's kids a lot better. Especially moving in with them. My nephew Camden is still so happy to see me come down the stairs. This morning I heard him looking for me. He's even started to come to me for comfort every once in a while. Deanna, the youngest, likes to come find me, too. If she knows I'm upstairs, she'll come and find me and try to open the door. Kendra started school last fall, and I was even able to drive her to school for her first day. Good times.

I've gotten into quilting again. I have one top done, one in progress, and enough fabric for 4 more quilts and a bag. I've bought books, a frame, and mom bought me a sewing machine. Well, it's hers, but it's for me to use. And we rearranged her whole craft room to be basically a sewing room. It's so rewarding to see something come together, and know that it's all my own work, mistakes and all.

So even though it's been really hard not having a full paycheck, I've been loving this time. I've been living with my sister for nearly two months now. I think I've finally gotten used to it. And we started going to the gym in the morning. And having someone motivated to go and getting me to go has been great.

I don't know what's going to happen next, jobwise, but I'm going to keep on enjoying what I have.